Sunday, February 3, 2008

Girl language... so true

When i dont call you
[ Its because im waiting for you to
call me ]

When i walk away from you mad
[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth
[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you
[ Grab me and dont let go ]

When i start cussing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me]

When im quiet
[ Ask me whats wrong/Or mess with me. ]

When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away
[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me im beautiful ]

When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will
be alright ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist from
behind ]

When im scared
[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i like you
[ I really do more than you could
understand ]

When i grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i bump into you
[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until i do ]

When i miss you
[ im hurting inside ]

When you break my heart
[the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over
[ i still want you to be mine ]

When i repost this bulletin
[ i want you to read it ]

Saturday, February 2, 2008

..:: I Learn Everytime I Bleed ..::

huhu..lately, hati sungguh byk terluke..y i have to face all these?sgt sedey..dlm sibuk2 nk dapatkan segulung master, kenape asyik rase sedey je?i need someone beside me..i need to be loved..i need someone to encourage me...i miss someone so much!!! hanya Tuhan je yang tahu how much i miss him! im not that strong..sigh..deep down my heart, i still hope masih ade jalan for us to get together..ameen! i thot my heart has changed..but, it's obviously shows..no one can ever replace you...

i wish i could dedicate this song to him..but................................................. =(

Alicia Keys -NO ONE

I just want you close

where you can stay forever

you can be sure

that it will only get better

You and me together, Through the days and nights

I don't worry cause, everything gonna be alright

People keep talking, they can say what they like

but all I know is everything's gonna be alright.



No one, no one, no one,

can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one, no one, no one

can get in the way of what I feel for you

you, you,

can get it the way of what I feel for you.



When the rain is pouring down

and my heart is hurting

you will always be around

this I know, for certain

you and me together, through the days and nights

I don't worry cause, every things gonna be alright

People keep talking, they can say what they like

but all I know is that every things gonna be alright.



No one, no one, no one,

can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one, no one, no one

can get in the way of what I feel for you

you, you,

can get it the way of what I feel for you.



I know some people search the world

to Find , something like what we have

I know people will try, try to define something so real

so till the end of time I'm telling you that no one



No one,no none

can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one,no one,no one

can get in the way of what I feel for you


Part of my heart telling me ..life must go on! Dont look behind! Be strong gurl..insyaAllah, there will be a way where you and someone will live happily ever after..ameen! Entahla..so far, aku rase aku tak mampu nk tempuh dugaan dlm my love life. Nape aku tgk org lain senang je nak bahagia? is it my fault? am i too fussy & choosy? i dont think so..semua orang berhak memilih..coz marriage is all about sharing..marriage is for ever..aku tak sanggup berkongsi hidup dengan org yg aku xde secebis pon rase sayang pd dia..if i meant to live with someone, biar la org itu aku syg seadanya dia..bukan krn tpakse or dipakse..God! help me!

Tattoo
by Jordin Sparks

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love

I keep coming back for more

Keep my hand in the fire

Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for



No matter what you say about life

I learn every time I bleed

That truth is a stranger

Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free



To admit that I'm wrong

And then change my mind

Sorry but I have to move on

And leave you behind



[Chorus]

I can't waste time so give it a moment

I realize, nothing's broken

No need to worry 'bout everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back at a new direction

I loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo



(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you

I'll always have you, I'll always have you)



I'm sick of playing all of these games

It's not about taking sides

When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver

It hurt enough to think that I could



Stop, admit that I'm wrong

And then change my mind

Sorry but I gotta be strong

And leave you behind



[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you

I'll always have you)



[Bridge]

If I live every moment

Won't change any moment

Still a part of me and you

I will never regret you

Still the memory of you

Marks everything i do



[Chorus x2]

Just like a tattoo

I'll always have you



Kekadang teringin nak jadi seorang yang amat degil dan mau peduli je ngn ape orang kate..tp hati aku ni tlalu baik..slalu mengingatkan aku yg sumer tu tak betul..tak baik..huhu... "jgn ikut perasaan..nnti binasa!" mungkin benar la kot kata-kata org tua ni..huwaaa...i need him so badly!!!!


Tesis! oh Tesis!

these few months, i'll be bz doing my thesis..huhu...last week on Thursday, baru je submit proposal...betul ke salah xtau la..then i went to see my SV...byk jugak info/softwares and journals dia bagi..my SV mmg sporting!caya laaa!!..so, dia pon da kasi green light suh wat project..hopefully, i bley buat sumer all by myself..huwaa sgt xsabar nk dapat segulung master..da penat rasenye blaja sambil keje ni...

bilik ku yg serabut dgn kertas sane sini...sumer tu kene bace tau!

first thing first, i kene amik PC dulu from Shafiq (my lil bro) pinjam jap eh fiq..jez for 5 months..u shud thank me for that coz im gonna upgrade ur pc..huhu byk nk kene upgrade -->> ram, graphic card, processor..hopefully, i can optimize it to the max! kalo xrugi la upgrade kn? raye cina ni baru nak gi amik pc kt KL...huhu im going to KL! hurray!(y am i so happy??!)


Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Budak Histeria!!!

Huhu arini saya sangat malassss!!! Lepas kelas kol 11, saya mengadap laptop buat grafik smpai la lunch..After lunch, ngdap laptop lagi utk update blog & fotopages..petang ol 4 ade meeting untuk kenduri Syam..

Syam was one of the lecturers kt sini.. last year bulan 6, he got a better offer utk jd Penolong Pengurus (like his father) kt Menara Rebung TM..bhgian TM Global kalo xsilap.. Ahad ni dia nak kawen..wat kt Dewan Rumpun Seri, MMC (Taiping) and the best thing is, ktorg satu kolej ni bergotong - royong untuk kenduri dia..memasak, basuh pinggan, buat air, jaga hidangan, kemas meja, lap meja n mcm2 la...bertuah Syam kan dapat kwn2 mcm ktorg!

Tetibe ptg td mase nk turun meeting, ade budak kene histeria..menjerit-jerit kat Education..saya turun tgk..huhu takut =( coz teringat kat sekolah asrama dulu..kalo kes2 mcm ni takut berjangkit plak..nnti kite plak histeria..diorg tanye saya, cane ubat org mcm ni?? (just bcoz i skolah agama..huhu) saya mane la reti bab2 ni..experience mmg pernah ade..but experience tgk jer la..nak ngubat, saya tak berani coz saya pon pengecut orangnye ...

okla, ni dok dengar budak tu jerit lagi.. =( nak gi tgk sat!

Sunday, January 20, 2008

main masak-masak


budak ni nama dia Farisya..anak jiran sebelah umah.. dan anak jiran ofismate (En.Shuhaimi) huhu...dia suke datang umah n ajak mewarne, membace n mengira ngn dia..layan jer la..da lame xde adik kecik..huhu..

yang paling klakaw..dia ajak aku main "Masak-masak!"....dia jadi mak..n aku jadi kakak...ekekeke...nak tergelak pon ade..aku pon berlakon jer la jadi kakak...huhu teringat dulu mase kecik2...slalu gak main masak2 ngn adik n kezen ;-)


Saturday, January 19, 2008

the beginning of my thesis...

waaa da lame tak update blog...quite bz with my classes, students, final exam and my thesis..huhu..last week, i just got the title of my thesis --> VIRTUAL TRAINING ENVIRONMENT FOR MMC .. mungkin tak berape gerun kot bace tajuk je...software yang nak digunakan tu yg menggerunkan aku..huhu i dunno whether i can make it or not..im so worry..my laptop cannot even support the softwares.. Quest 3D & 3D Studio Max..these are the software that im gonna use...huwaaaaa! i gotta brush my skill in 3D.. know wut? i wanted to do a system...but, my prof said it's not master level...too easy...i've been doin' this 3D concept for my degree thesis --> 3D CYBERPAT..it was so damn difficult.. (yeah! difficult+complicated coz im not expert in 3D!!!!!!) now, im preparing for my proposal that have to be submitted this thursday..huhu 4 more days to finish it up! the worst thing is, i have to read more than 30 journals!!!!! juling mata ni bace banyak sgt... =(



my study table..


huwaaaa...see??? i have to read more than 30 journalsss!!!



huhu..i have to upgrade my laptop for faster & better job!

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

..:: Happy New Year!! ::..

It is difficult not to believe that the next year will be better than the old one!
And this illusion is not wrong.
Future is always good, no matter what happens.
It will always give us what we need and what we want in secret.
It will always bless us with right gifts.
Thus in a deeper sense our belief in the New Year cannot deceive us.

Good bye 2007!! Hello 2008!! huhu...i think im just not ready to be in 2008..dunno why..it seems like i know what's gonna happen in this year=( im hoping for a better life..better love life and be a better person...just hope all me dreamz will come true this year! may God blessing for every single thing i've done..ameen!